Introspection...

Am I lost ? this is the question I keep asking myself these days without getting answer or am I afraid to be answered in YES.If it is the case what can be done to move back to the right path. At the first place I have to prioritize things and problem begins here itself.When you have too many things on your plate ,you tend to vacillate about things.In that case the only solution I can think of is to make sure that there are few number of item at my disposal. Like a horse with the eye fold let me run in the straight path without getting distracted which is always easier said than done.Victory comes with perseverance and let me check if i could make myself aloof doing one thing at a time. Distractions are bound to happen but to deal with them is an art .Let me draw myself again..alone ruminating pondering in place of a convivial living. It is time to act else everything would be lost forever.I shall put a price on every passing seconds.Let this strategy works .. here comes one more addition to the distraction.. DVD of "Mirza Ghalib by Gulzar".. Hope finds me doing good...

Like others , i too enjoying watching raining . Sitting on the Fence ,waiting for someone i went into deep thought about the reason why did i like it at the first place. What is it that attracts everyone when he sees it. I related it to the calmness one acquires when he is finished with the Emotional outburst (read Weeping). High is the downpour and happier is the mood.. i am not sure if Freud would agree on this explanation of mine..

Getting drench in rain is even more sublime. It cleans you from inside and makes you feel freshen up. If you could remember the exalted feeling of Tim Robbins in "Shawshank Redemption" when he comes out of the tunnel in the midst of rain.

on a dull Friday Evening..

Life is a series of ups and downs. I would like to believe the life to be that way only. The charm of leading a life is to keep exploring yourself and be ready for anything that come your way .Exploration would let you know about the resources hidden inside you ,which you need in the case of handling a tough situation.So keep searching for the resources.

I was released from the project on 28th may. However little be the attachment,but i was part of it. Though i never felt that i belonged there. Yes, I was out of Place yet ironically i felt a sense of belonging after being released. Emotion will never let you tread on a single path.

Day before yesterday I saw a glimmer of hope.But as they say there is many a slips between cup and lip.. Managers are like Dapper always on Ass and usually full of shit..And this also describes my manager. As Shakespeare says "For Brutus is an honorable man, so are all an honorable man". But Caesar won't be deceived this time by Brutus . God bless my manager some sense and me some chances .. I don't want to go into ditch again . I want to take the bull by its horns this time. let's see what is there in the store for me. I Believe, everything happens for the best . so be it....:-)

Nothing catches my fancy anymore.. I need to look for something strong enough to drive me on any path let alone right one. There is no better way to define me but 'Stagnant '. I don't know whether others also feel the way i feel about it. Many a time I questioned myself the very reason to exist. If life has to be like this only, it is better not to think about it. It feels as if i am getting robbed and i can't do anything. Sometimes you can not lead the life the way , you wanted it .Life is all about accidents and achievements ,you can hardly be sure about anything anytime.But is this not the beauty of life to be inconclusive all the time. Let us enjoy the moment be it a happy one or a sad one.Once it is passed , it won't come back.So feel it to the fullest. Having Said that we must strive hard to see the life leading the way , we wanted it to be .

There is no way to happiness.. Happiness is the way..

counting Emotions..

They say, it is good to be loved and better to love.For me ,The best is to see persons madly in love with each other.. In Week end i have seen a couple. It was heartening to see them. But as with other good things, you have to earn it. Here I guess both earned each other ..How i wish here that all the couple get their destination which by Indian culture is to get married.

On the next day i met a guy whose parents recently knew of his love story. I don't know why but i got terrified for him. Marriage is an auspicious celebration in one's life. why do parents blot it by giving marching order rather than listening to their loved ones. Does son's happiness not bring smile on their faces too. After all their happiness is , when his son or daughter is happy.

God bless the couple...

Life is beautiful . really ?

I am not a sadist but some times i too fail to see the positivity of events happening around. To me this is the reflection of my own mental status.. If i feel happy from my inner self , everything looks perfect irrespective of their actual presence. Even the grave moments of sadness can't dispel the smile from my lips at that time..Some times hell of a joke goes unnoticed ..

Life is ,as they say, beauty lies in the eye of beholder, beautiful to them who see it that way.. i am still trying to see the beauty of it.. Life , to me is perplexing ,always changing ,wanton kind of a things., you can scarcely be sure about .. The life ,i am leading .is ,boring ,unsocial. I compare myself as someone who has slipped in to the dark well in the dead of a jungle and asking for a ladder and no one is offering any help let alone a ladder.

I am still waiting for the ladder ..:-(

Totally Down and out....

Life is asking so much of questions these days , I find it very difficult to answer any of these.. Too many questions and fewer answer..God Bless me...