What is man's biggest folly..? There can be a number of right answers. My answer is , the greatest mistake a person can do when he let his emotion overpowers his thought process.. In that case he is very gullible..The best way to abstain from it to rein your emotion by continuously thinking about the aftereffect of that sudden out burst of emotion.. Hold the nerve , that is what they say is the key to win matches in Cricket.. I guess that is applicable to the all the walks of life..

i am not a bad guy at heart.. If i do something wrong in the heat of emotion..i don't feel good . i wish i could go back and put things together. how i wish i could move clock back.. yes, i know it is not possible..but i feel remorseful for my wrong doings..

Could not manage to sleep..something some where went wrong.. and i kept thinking .. one more night shift for this week....Alas i am done with this .. any body listening... God bless me.. My warm wishes for Vivek,Archana didi,Arpit for their birthdays..May god bless them all the heavens of the earth...

i am reading about Raghupati sahay 'Firaq'... This couplet looked worth a glance if not many...

"आने वाली नस्लें तुम पर रश्क करेंगी हमअस्रों

जब ये ख्याल आयेगा उनको,तुमने फ़िराक़ को देखा था.."

Days are passing without any significant contribution to the life.. If life has to be dealt with this insipidity , it is more appropriate to start doing things you usually don't do.. i wish i had the luxury of time ,i would have certainly gone back to my school days and felt the sheer pleasure of wandering around with friends.. how i wish i had those days returned in lieu of these vapid days.. i comply with Aristotle when he says "all paid job is mind degrading ".. There are things far more important than job itself.. But i am trying to learn the traits of this business of feigning cheerful when you are in knee deep water.. I wish for better days to come .. I hope i get my quota of excitement .. Ghalib always comes to rescue in these days .. read some new couplets ..

हम कहाँ के दाना थे किस हुनर में यकता थे
बेसबब हुआ ‘ग़ालिब’ दुश्मन आसमाँ अपना..

The Last day that was 31st Dec 2008

Long cherished dream of having a Bike at last came true yesterday. It was anything but thrilling the moment i own it..As it is the case with the other mundane things ,thrills and excitement is there as long as you are in search of that..By the time you get it ..it has already lost it's shine.. Nothing is here for eternity but the quest for having more and more.. If i were to live last year again, i would have done something to have my head held high over my shoulders. if 'How to while away your  time' is something people want to inquire about , they can easily see in  me a Research Scholar ,who has worked very hard to try out everything possible there . I must confess that i did n't do anything that can be treated as a work of   software engineer if reading Biographies and Novels  don't qualify for it.They say To err is human and i am not a special one. I might have been on wrong foot but i will make sure i start new year with jest and fervor to amend it.It won't  be easy ,i know , it may take a year but I will reach there.. ,Hope i Stand on my own expectation in coming times..This is an extra ordinary time and extra ordinary times need extra ordinary measures.. I will try to set my clock likewise so that it doesn't loose time if doesn't gain.....

Merry Christmas ...

Some Events have not gone the way i thought it to be but this is how life goes about.. In coming days i need to introspect what exactly i have done apart from treading Water.. Merry christmas..

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In my end is my beginnning...

It is long since i have been here..i don't know what to write ... Today i am relieved off ....... Now a days i am hoping earnestly for a bike..God bless me ...

Primary Education..

This chapter of my story unfolds with My admission in Golden English school where i was inducted in UKG. Initially abha didi and me were in the same class. I had no remembrance of doing anything outstanding there.. i have never been such a person..i am a mediocre through out my life.. Being elder to your brothers sometimes limits your action as you have to set some standard for the rest.. I guess this was the reason i was not a carefree kid as it was supposed to be from a boy of my age.. yet sibling rivalry was there.. Me and Brajraj were always used to be engaged in childish act of one upmanship.I still believe he is more intelligent than me and the same was the case in our childhood.He was selected for Navoday vidyalay and i was for Netarhat residential School and it was life changing event in my life....
To be continued....

Introduction to World...

As i am told i was born by the blessing of Ram.. And when elder boys from our family had not had the courage to go for the name "RAM" as suggested by my grandmother.Finally My mother "kaushalya" took it as blessing and named me RAM.. i was brought up in a very rustic style as we were living in village at that point of time ..I was the first baby boy of my family so i was apple of every one's eye . papa jee is a very progressive person.Being a professor he knows what it takes to get the good education .So we left our village when i was 6 years old For Begusarai nearly 20 km from our village. Initially we were admissioned in Govt School and as wheel of time moved we were subjected to private tuition and private school.
To be continued.....